sigh...I give up...almost

Ok. So I'm sure everyone has problems with inlaws now and again, but I think the time has come for me to share my frustration with mine. They have never liked me. I still try hard, put on a happy face, and play "one big happy family" with them bc that makes my DH happy and keeps the tension down. Yesterday after a rough but still ok clinical day (me and my classmate got power barfed on by a man with a horrible intercranial bleed) I went hunting on their land. I didn't see anything and came back to my car and changed. Even though I was cold and exhausted and had a huge test to study for, I went to say hello and maybe talk for just a bit. I knocked on the door and then tried to open it to peep my head inside...it was locked, so I looked through the glass and knocked a little harder...I with my little eye spied my MIL making a face and rolling her eyes and pointing at the door. Eventually she came and opened it. I tried to make conversation and she just acted like she could not get me out of their house fast enough. Normally, when I am with my husband she INSISTS we stay and tries to feed him (her cooking is not bad I just try to watch what I eat and usually don't eat there so she has since given up on trying to feed me) but last night she hardly said a word and at the slightest indication that I did not intend to stay long she told me good luck studying and see you later. I was a little baffled to say the least. I got so upset about it I cried the whole way home (we live in a trailer about 10 mins away from them but still on land they own...that is a whole different story...). I just kept feeling like total worthless crap. My parents could not be happier with my husband if they had birthed him themselves. He is an amazing person. I feel like I am someone they could be so proud of and excited to have marry into their family, but they are never overjoyed to see me like my parents are with DH. They told DH from the beginning I was lazy and socially awkward. I am anything but lazy. At the time they met me was the first time I had been unemployed for a very long time and I was applying to rad tech school so getting a job at the time was not a priority. I in the past have went to college full time and held down two jobs all at the same time...lazy? And as for the socially awkward part, yes, I am a little shy around people at first and I might not try to dominate the freaking conversation like ALL THE WOMEN IN HIS FAMILY. However, a sense of reserve does not by any means make me what she called "socially retarded or delayed". I have a crap ton of friends that would be more than happy to clear that up for her. What did my husband say you ask? Oh, I didn't tell him until this afternoon at lunch and his reaction reminded me why, he still thinks it is all in my head. I love my husband, and I know he just wants us all to get along, but he still makes excuses for behavior of his family that upsets me. He doesn't see the passive aggressive crap I see. I have tried so hard to turn the other cheek and be the bigger person and not let it get to me but last night it really upset me. So, as much as I would love to tell her I know just how stupid she is I will just smile and pretend like I don't see or hear the mean stuff. That is the only way I can make sure she loses. Jesus would not yell at her and throw stuff at her face, so I can't yell at her and throw stuff at her face. Sigh. She is so mean. Anywho, I'm gonna go buy some dark brown hair rinse tonight maybe if I have time! If I like it, I might be brown for a while...who knows! Have a super evening! :)